I feel my youth slipping away from me like the last username I created is slipping from my memory. I am not old, but am teetering on the proverbial tightrope that separates youth and the dreaded age of responsibility: 30. In less than a month, readers, I will turn 29. The age two years after the famed 27, when famous people of all talents forged their fame forever. The age after the desired 28, when, as one feminist site claimed, female sexuality is at its peak. And, as the heat from my candles will warm my face, I have endeavored to have it all and lose it all prior to any kind of wish being made. 

APB Wish Fairies: This one is going to be one giant, icing-covered, cherry-on-top, kind of wish. Send your biggest fairy. I've whittled it down, during spring and summer wishing practices, to one simple desire: I want to be happy. Everyday.

I believe this to be totally within wish boundaries. Happiness is highly subjective and according to some, totally unattainable. Nobody can be totally happy. We aren't sugar-fueled, Christmas-elf-kissing, Disney princesses who wake up, perfectly coiffed, eyes-glistening, glowing like we've been passionately fucked by a combination of Ryan Gosling and Brad Pitt, with little birds carrying our robes to our shoulders as we greet the day with sun shining out of our perfectly round, hairless, bleached asses. And its not what I want for successfully blowing out my 29 candles. I want to be happy enough to feel marginally blessed with another day. Does that include anything I don't have in my life right now? Maybe. 

It is a selfish, rich-girl wish. But I am neither selfish, nor rich. However, I do feel there is value in being thankful for things. I am thankful for the few things I still have: friends, family, the ability to change for the better, and the ability to hold fast to the things I wouldn't change for the world. The desire to be thankful for more, the search for happiness, begins with just such a selfish request of our fairies.

Dear readers, this will be notes on my journey to help out my overworked little fairies with that wish.